Sunday, March 27, 2011


Guess who went to Ultra Fest? ME.
Hands down, it was one of thee best experiences of my life.
Picture a land where you are surrounded by your favorite music, people are dressed exactly how you dress, and you're with some of your best friends in the whole world. People are dancing up and down the streets, the vibe is nothing short of happy and generous, and you can talk to anyone you want with no pre-judgments. The best part of it all: everyone is there for the exact same reason.
I am still completely put in awe by the fact that thousands upon thousands of people from around the world can come together in unison for one sole purpose; music. Whether people were rolling face, tripping balls or completely sober, you are all feeling the unbelievable power of music together. The powerful bonding you experience between the people in the crowd with you makes me want to cry. And I can't even begin to describe the pleasure of being able to experience something like Ultra with my best friends.

We started the day pretty early, we drank a bit, and the first show we went to was Steve Aoki. Imagine starting of your morning with a little live Steve Aoki blasting WARP in your face? I CAN! It was amazing. Then we saw Afrojack who killed it completely, I was up front and center making love with Fedde Le Grand's eyes, I moshed my face off and killed my body at Skrillex, I jammed to Kaskade, Oh and Sander Kleinenberg came on to power through "This is Miami" and then we turned our full attention to Armin Van Buuren who almost killed me with his beats, literally, I had to leave because I almost passed out in the crowd. Let's see who else...Oh Nero performed and then I sat and watched Underworld completely kill the people who were on Acid.
And then, for the finale, Deadmau5 came on.
I honestly will not be able to describe the amount of euphoric ecstasy that I felt during this show. I met a really nice tall boy from California who let me sit on his shoulders during his show...and of all songs to open with, he opened with 'Some Chords.' As soon as he opened with that I KNEW I was supposed to be at Ultra. For those of you that make fun of me for talking like this, bite me, because this is what I live for. There are few songs that bring me to a completely paralyzing state, and Deadmau5 happens to spin two of them. Then I got down and jammed on my feet for a minute...and then...THEN, the beginning of "Raise Your Weapon" started. My new friend grabbed me and threw me on his shoulders, and as soon as that first beat dropped, I BURST into tears. The combination of the lights, the music, and the crowd was too much for me. I wasn't crying because I saw Deadmau5, I think the power of the atmosphere just overwhelmed me. I was so much higher than everyone else, and looking around at all of the 60,000 people that were gathered together for a union of listening to the same music was unbelievably powerful. I turned around and through the lights I saw a sea of people, everyone's eyes closed and feeling the music together. I hadn't cried in so long, and when Raise Your Weapon came just felt so right for that moment. I honestly felt as though the music reached inside of me and cradled my soul. And it was the best feeling in the world.
For that one moment every single fear, worry, complaint, anxiety and thought left my head. It was just me and the music. You know that feeling when you are freezing cold and you get into a hot bath, and as you put yourself in the water limb by limb you get chills because the warmth of the bath feels so good...and you love how the water takes over your body step by step? That's exactly how I felt with the music of Deadmau5. Every part of my head and body was completely consumed by the syncopation of the lights and music. Plus the fact that you are surrounded by so many people who are feeling the exact same's just all too much. It was by far one of the most spiritual encounters with music I've ever had. I thank God every day that I am able to hear music the way that I do. I don't need to roll, or trip, or get wasted, I'm defected enough where I can be sober and feel like I'm in Heaven with certain typed of music.
Then he played I Remember, which I hadn't heard in so long, and it was so beautiful hearing it live. And then for his encore, he played the song I blogged about, HR8938 Cephai. It was unreal. AND Tommy Lee made a gust appearance on the drums for when Sophie came on to sing 'Sophie Needs a Ladder' and 'One Trick Pony.' How sick is that? Thank you Deadmau5, for reminding me of the reason I keep listening and writing about music.


Trevor McFedries, aka DJ Skeet Skeet (28,000+ followers on twitter) messaged me about his girl Gumshoe who just came out with a new video for her cover of Brandy's "What About Us." I watched, fell in love with this girls voice, unique style and bald head, and decided that I would love to get to know more about her, ask her some questions and put up the video. I honestly like her version of this song more than Brandy's, and the reggae beat that's going on in the song does it well for me. She is a SWEETHEART, completely humble, and has a pretty sick fashion blog. >> gummelove

Gumshoe met Trevor at one of his eat skeet parties in LA, where Gumshoe was born and raised. She's hoping to become part of a family of creative minds, where Trevor is most certainly helping that take place. She's a young thing, only 24, and shaved her head only a couple months ago. (Best. Decision. Ever - the girl looks rockin.)Her nose ring rules.. represent nose rings!! She says her style and music work as one because she has nothing to hide, it's all full of clarity, and it's simple; but completely free and honest. Which is how I feel her music is as well. Her voice is enough to do everything for a song. Sweet sound this girl has. Anyway, here is her video "What About Us" - enjoy!
follow her on twitter: @okGumShoe

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Preparation Ultra

Firstly, let me apologize for my ridiculous absence from the blog.

Okay Ultra Fest Miami is this weekend, and I would probably cut out my eye if I could go. I'm banking on one last resort (my sister who spoils me) and hoping that she'll understand how long I have been waiting (my whole life) to go to Ultra and be my savior. ANYWAY. There are so many freaking new remixes out by the DJs who are spinning at Ultra to hype people up, and it's starting to stress me out. I almost had a panic attack today when I stumbled through an unnamed blog through hypem and saw about 30 different remixes added TODAY. I can't handle this through a computer, I just need to experience it all live. And I don't have enough time to go through all of these remixes, plus a lot of them are like...very basic and not that exciting and they seem like they didn't really take that much time to be put together....(no offense, actually, yeah take offense and fix it.) But I did collect some decent ones, and hopefully I'm listening to these getting myself psyched up for a reason....come on Kate pull through.

MSTRKRFT - Beards Again

MSTRKRFT!!! Oh my goodness, I have not heard anything new from them in far too long of time. I was SO excited when I saw this, the song is great, and there's a pretty sick transition in the song. They were by far the best show I have ever been to. Over the year or so I've collected a couple of Death from Above 1979 songs, which I have previously blogged, but MSTRKRFT being back in action helped complete my week. If I get to go to Ultra I will see them thereee! Check out a sweet interview with JFK here.

Professor Green - Monster (Camo & Krooked Remix)

I mean it's okay. I like Professor Green, and this remix is pretty hard. The beginning is nice and easy, and I feel as though maybe they should have controlled the drop a little bit better, but this is definitely good dubstep.

Benny Benassi feat. T. Pain - Electroman (Congorock remix)

You may like the original the best, but after listening to like the 70+ remixes that stemmed from it, this one became my favorite. Absolutely amazing build up, totally gets you revved up, and the drop is decent, second one is better, especially when they ad the drum beat.

Lady Gaga - Baby I Was Born This Way (Dada Life Remix)

THIS is what I'm freaking talking about when I am looking for a song to stoke you out for a festival like Ultra. The first drop is okay, but the SECOND DROP. HOLY MOTHER. It's one of the most exciting build ups and releases I have heard in quite a minute. Almost ALMOST comparable to the Fenech Soler remix to Hollywood by Marina and the Diamonds. Almost.

Avicii - ID

I don't know why this is so short. But it's suuuuper good feeling, and makes me want to dance super badly.

Deadmau5 - HR 8938 Cephei

This is freaking long. But this is the shit I would die to see live. Just being surrounded by a ton of people with the beats taking over your body and the lights matching up. UGH, I would die.

Deadmau5 vs Far East Movement - Ghosts on a G6 (Basic Physics Remix)

Well the first vid I saw from last years Ultra had the Ghosts and Stuff song to it, and I always had a weak spot for the beat of G6. So them being mashed together made me extremely excited.

Post Xanax

Mt. Eden feat. Ruby Frost - Oh That I Had

I love this song. It's so beautiful, and it makes me want to cry. I want to listen to this while I am running away.

I tried to watch the Virgin Suicides last night for the first time since I saw it in highschool. I could't do it. I couldn't even watch what used to be one of my favorite movies. As soon as the scene opened and she dropped the Holy card, that was it for me. I don't know why I am still so sensitive, it's over and done with, but I still have so much guilt and anxiety. I pray every day that it goes away, and I believe it is. It's going away a little too slowly, but I feel it moving.
Which brings me to my next point. I've had at least five people come up to me at school telling me that I look happier. What the hell does that mean? I don't think I will ever be a "happy person" but I suppose it's nice to have going on right now. I do have a new person who I think it contributing highly to my mood. It's nice to have no pre judgements about you and being able to start new. It's really, really nice.

But then the anxiety of school ending and becoming a real live adult sets in. And the I remember that I still want to move somewhere where nobody knows who I am, and I can pretend to be anyone I want to be.
I want to go far away. Very far away.

I want to be in places like this.

I need to pierce something or dye something or recreate myself somehow.

Reblogged from Tumblr's errrwhere.

The Strokes / Robyn

The much anticipated "Angels" album from The Strokes has dropped today! Hoorayy! I was a little bit hesitant knowing that Julian Casablancas took a back seat on writing this album, but I'm going to be honest, I love it. Maybe it's just because I have been listening to so much heavy electro lately that it's a really nice change, but regardless, it's really great. It's a very good feeling album. Also, they performed on SNL and they killed it. I love bands that play better even better live. Check it HERE.

The Strokes - Under Cover of Darkness

Well this was their single for a while now, so I'm sure you've all heard. So good.

The Strokes - Machu Picchu

This song reminds me of Atlantaaaa. Pre - Monroe street, Post backyard bonfires. The guitar in this song is SO happy.

The Strokes - Call Me Back

I'm gunna go ahead and say that this is probably my favorite on the album so far. I don't know what it is about the song, but there is something about it that evokes some weird emotion in me. If I was emotional, I would totally cry at :46 and on. This is definitely my new sleepy song. Yay.

The Strokes - Metabolism

Okay this might be a little crazy, but I swear to you this sounds like something Thom Yorke would produce. Tell me Casablancas doesn't harmonize in a Yorke-ian fashion in this song. He does. Which makes me like the song even more.

I always blog new Robyn. :)

TeddyBears feat. Robyn - Cardiac Arrest

She's like...kind of annoying in this song, but I put it past her, because, well, it's her.

Robyn - Call Your Girlfriend

Her voice sounds pretty in this :) And the lyrics are totally on point.

Robyn - Call Your Girlfriend (Sultan & Ned Shephard Remix preview)


Monday, March 7, 2011

Stolen Souls Pt. 2

Brought to you from all across the Blogspot & Tumblr world.

SB Tunage

Katy B - Broken Record

I talk about her all of the time. I really have a massive crush on her. Her voice is PERFECT. And hypem once again, graced me with the presence of this song. And I just found the video which I guess was released today. Yesssss.

OMC - How Bizarre

I'm a little embarrassed by how old this is, but my friend Carolynne and I kept saying "how bizarre" one afternoon, and then we started jammin to this song, and now I just can't stop. And it will forever remind me of the movie Parent Trap.

Usher - More (Red One Remix)

I heard this on the radio. I had no idea mainstream music was so much fun! But anyway, as expected this is my new dance song. I'm slightly in love with it, too bad I have nobody to go dancing with. Oh wait, that's a lie, I will be in Miami in two days. :)

Royksopp - Keyboard Milk

Uhmm...I have nothing to say. Royksopp's shit is always on point, so are every single one of their video's. Except this song makes me want to run away for some reason. Or
go to a graveyard. Or something....

Katy B - Broken Record

YESSSS. She's so pretty, I love the lights, the dancing, everything. Thank you APC for once again making my night complete.


If you've been keeping up with my constant bitching, then you would know that the past couple of weeks I've been feeling depression creeping it's way back inside of my life. However, after telling that to my mom one night on the phone, and having her flip a shit and scream at me (I know it's because she just doesn't understand how it all works, and she honestly is just scared that...'that' will happen again) I made a conscious decision to tell myself to stop sinking and start swimming. Along with this initial internal power, a very cute friend of mine gave me a book to read. As I was reading it I could've sworn that he was either trying to convert me to Protestantism or he heard that I was negative and acted like he had just a random book floating around to give to me. But honestly, it was one of the most positive, healthy, nice, (literary defected) books I've ever read. It was all about Perspective.
That is something I'm not good at. Everything is half empty to me, everything is dead or dying, and everything is shitty. But honestly, where the hell is that attitude going to get me in life? Nowhere. Now I know why one of my best friends wouldn't take my shit any longer. She always had a positive attitude, and now she's the head intern at Vogue's accessory department. How depressing was I to be around the last year or so? SO WHAT, shit happens, I bet 80% of people have PTSD, clinical depression.... anxiety and panic disorder............but if I choose to just sit and wait for the worst...where is that going to get me. I was bitching about how I have to stay at school for spring break...WHO CARES, I live in freaking Naples, FL, one of the nicest warm areas of the south, I have a bajillion books I can finally read for myself, I'm with two of my best friends, and I have all the time in the world to blog and go to the beach. I did't really get to see this until I met thee most depressing person in the world. So self-loathing, so selfish, so negative....I never ever want to be that bad.
So damn, here is to brightening up my wardrobe from black to grey.

Lykke Li

I am extremely pleased with her new album, obviously, so I decided to put up some of my faves.

Lykke Li - Rich Kid Blues

Lykke Li - Youth Knows No Pain

Lykke Li - I Know Places

(My new sleeping song)

Lykke Li - Sadness is a Blessing

And last but not least, my favorite.

I miss my friends :(

Me and Linz, RockYard NYC for Chief
Me and Laur, West Village NYC
Me and Brittany, Atlanta
Me and Colleen, West Village NYC