Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Denying Your Passion Is the Greater Sin


I have been so bad at keeping up my own blog, for I have no free time for it anymore, which saddens me, but also is really cool because that means I'm too busy writing for other people. But if it serves as one purpose only, that's fine by me, because my thoughts and random spews have a home.

I've been wanting to write something about this for a while, but instead I've trapped people in conversation hoping they hold the same views as me, or trying to get them to understand what I'm saying, I don't even really know. But lately I've been struggling (?) with the notion of sin, more importantly Hell, and who goes and what not. DISCLAIMER: I'm Catholic, you all know this, you can't change my stubborn view, don't try. On top of coming to a 25 year journey of a conclusion, I'm staying this religion. Plus I'm a Taurus so just....don't even try.
Anyway, I've been thinking about the traditional views on whats right / wrong in the Church, connecting it with what's right / wrong in terms of just being healthy for us in general, trying to figure out why one thing is a greater sin or the other, and I mean...this is totally going in a direction I didn't want to go in, but shit, that's what stream of conscious writing is, right? I don't want to talk about what's wrong and right, I know what I know / have been taught, BUT one thing I think has modernized itself as one of the greatest sins (and not necessarily in a religious sense of sin) is denial of your passion.
And I don't mean passion as in sex or food or being passionate about partying, I mean our intrinsic passion. We were all born with different minds, different souls, different likes, distastes, and passions. Having a talent is one of the greatest treats of life, but being too scared, too self conscious, or too unaware of it really is detrimental to our time here on Earth. I've spent a better part of my years too scared to do anything. And that did nothing but lead to regret. I regret not tapping into my mind in high school and being overly preoccupied with being social or too caught up in the drama going on in my family. I spent too many years self-loathing, being depressed, lying on my bed blasting music and not wanting to talk to anyone, undergoing therapy sessions of fixing depression, and worried what other people thought of me. It wasn't until I was STUCK in the middle of fucking nowhere in Georgia in college that I fell in love with Dante Alighieri, and a bunch of other authors and books I was forced to read. It was then I started my blog because I realized I LOVED writing, and since I was always so passionate about music and that super annoying girl in HS who was always like "HAVE YOU HEARD THE NEW PORTISHEAD" and begged other kids in college to let me play my music at their parties, I figured maybe (actually my mom suggested) I should start a blog about music. And just write about it. Even if no one reads it, write about it. Nobody was listening to me when I would hound them with music, nobody cared, so I wrote to the internet when I was 19. #bloglife. It wasn't until my school shut down and I was transferred to a really hard University in Naples, FL (and busted my ass like I didn't know what possible) that I found out I was actually moderately decent at writing. My professors told me my strong point was honesty, and that I'd make a killing at journalism, because I have to know every detail of every story I hear. So, I had a good ear for tunes, had a knack for writing, loved them both my whole life before I ever even knew I loved it, and made a life. I was lucky enough to grow up in New York so I took full advantage of moving back with the understanding of the city that a lot of people don't have.
I don't get paid well. I still nanny on the side. But I took a passion and I made it fruitful. The other night I had one of the highlights of my career, and there was a moment I looked around and I was just like "how the hell did I get here, how is this even happening right now?" And I realized I was living my dream. SHITTY effing things have happened, are still happening, I'm broker than hell, but for that ONE night, everything that I have been working for was right there, and it's a really cool feeling to know that I did it all by myself.
The point of this post was not to talk about my life, but to try to make a point that we should all take times of silence to figure out what it really is we're passionate about. Whether it be a writer, in finance, a nanny, a mother, a wife, a coffee lover, a failing guitar player, find it. Find that passion and go with it, even if you can't make a living off of it, at least you spent your ONLY time we have on this Earth trying it all out.
I also think about if something really sudden happened and my life ended. What would be said about me? Would people remember me in a good light? Would I be pissed because I never went after what I was too scared to go after? Was I nice while doing it? Did people want to be around me? I don't know if we get to keep doing what we love after we die, so this is it.

This life is the ONLY life we have, we need to make the best of it. If we all used the passion we were born with, imagine what we could do.

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Miami & its Music Scene



OK, so I know I haven't posted in a  while and for those who actually enjoy my blog, I apologize, and for the others who don't like it, whatever. I just spent a week in Miami visiting my University best friends, and quite honestly, I think this was one of the best weeks I've ever had. I do understand that if I was just a little more patient with my depression, I could've waiting and gone during WMC and made it year three for me, but nah. So I have a couple things to say about revisiting the good old South Florida coast. Driving down Ocean Drive and Collins Ave with two of my best friends blasting Moon Boots, Alison Valentine and other feel good summer breeze music with the windows open, palm trees lining the streets, the ocean in plain view, absolutely melted my heart. I get chills when I look at the art deco buildings, am able to walk around bare foot, get coffees in just a bathing suit, get so tan and salty, come home, change and go out for the night, sleep and repeat. My two girlfriends are from Central America and never fail to expose me to the best of the best Reggaeton, which makes me even happier because living in NY, you forget about music like that. 
i.e:
Beach life is one of the greatest thing that happened to me, and being back this week reminded me why it is so healthy to visit places of beauty and warmth every so often. This f'ing city (NYC) is on my last nerve, it's freezing, it's grey, this industry is beating my ass, and quite frankly, I'm getting really depressed here. Just like how we should be eating clean by eating foods of color, I think we should live in places of color as well. Anyway, as I was standing on my head in a yoga pose facing the water on South Beach, I was seriously considering looking for jobs down in Miami, because nothing is better than being in that weather with my friends around music. So anyway, one night we went to one of the South Beach clubs, and as we walked in, they were playing the AMTRAC remix to "Bassline" and I was like "hell yeah, word." But then the DJ transitioned it into an Avicii song. And I mean like, to each their own, but NOBODY but me was like "WTFFF". Do you know why? Because nobody in Miami cares wtf is playing,  as long as they look good and everyone cause see them at an expensive club. And I realized, as tight as WMC is, that's mad lame that that is the only time that good music along with good crowds roll thru Miami. And don't fight with me on this one, I know theres like the occasional Bardot show with a dope DJ, but I swear to you, nobody in the crowd cares who is playing. Nobody. Everyone's on their phones, it's like a $60 cover, and drinks are stupid pricey. Now, I know Miami is getting kinda cool with areas like Wynwood and shit, but still, those are just little bars, kinda like a Willyburd / Bushwick area sans concert spaces and warehouse spots. 
If Miami had someone (me) come down and maybe help create a dope year round music scene, it would be the coolest spot in the world. Like, warm weather, gorgeous atmosphere, tan people, sand, sun, surf, music. And I'm really aiming this towards the electronic scene, not the reggae ton scene or anything. I genuinely am upset that WMC makes Miami thee shit for a WEEK then after its like a bomb just went off and everyones dispersed. It's not fair, Miami should be a tight place for music year round. Everything is too expensive, the people are too concerned with status, and it just sucks. It's like going to Avenue or 1Oak or some other super super shitty spot in NYC with dumb ass models and bottle service no matter where you go. Miami could have the tightest underground low key cheap ass spots, it just needs someone in there to go kick it's ass into shape a bit.
And I'm totally willing to be that person. 

Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Thankful New Year's Post that's Pretty Sappy.

I'm going to apologize in advance if this post is super duper lame and sentimental but I can't help myself sometimes, you know? I've never been a huge fan of New Years, it's an overrated holiday where people get obliterated and can't remember their nights, but I'm having a hard time not having feelings towards this past year. 2013 was without a doubt the best year I've ever had. I got writing gig after writing gig, I met the greatest people of life, and made some of the best friends of anyone in all of the land. I'm scared for this new year because I can't imagine a better year, but maybe, just maybe it's possible that things can get even better. I am so thankful for my family, my friends, and all the people who read my ridiculous shit and appreciate it. I am thankful for being opened up even more to a music / writing community here in NYC, and although I've spent most of my life here, this is the first year I've really, genuinely felt at home in this insane city. And that's extremely hard for me because I've lived really cool places and I move around a lot because I'm never content. But I am now. I love what I do, I love my amazing friends, I love this crazy city, and I am so eternally grateful for all the opportunity I've been given this past year. Not to mention 2013 is in a VERY TIGHT run with the best year for music, IMO. God Bless my life, God Bless my family, God Bless my friends, God Bless my heart, and most importantly, God Bless Music.

And here is an amazing song that I forgot to put in my Top 10 of 2k13

Monday, December 23, 2013

Jenny Mayhem - TV Waltz





I'm not typically down for press releases if I don't already know the artist, but in this case, yes yes yes and more yes! Plucky guitar sounds and sweet vocals, very similar to the likes to Agnes Obel, and the remixes are so on point, I couldn't help but put this up to share with everyone.


The original track for “TV Waltz” was recorded with guitarist Tom Juhas at The Orange Lounge, Toronto. The stripped-down, atmospheric folk song is reminiscent of Jenny’s previous “Alice in Wonderland” from her 2011 EP.

“’TV Waltz” started with the idea of watching stories on a screen for so long that they start to creep into real life. Like with a good book, the people on TV start to feel like friends who comfort you, distract you, shape what you want. But it’s also about the power of the people who write those stories”

Jenny enlisted the support of Swiss artist Draaiwinti and Canadian producer O S L O to create two indie electronic remixes for this release. The remixes are a surprising departure from the original folk track. Jenny’s latest release is “TV Waltz” – a folk acoustic single including remixes by Draaiwinti and O S L O. She continues to write, record and collaborate with artists in Toronto and in the online community."

Thursday, December 19, 2013

Yolanda Be Cool - All That She Wants (feat. SYF & Fritz Helder)





First and foremost, anything and everything having to do with Ace of Base is an automatic excellent in my book. Second and also foremost, any cover of an Ace of Base done by Yolanda Be Cool and the boys from Azari & III is a going to be a guaranteed banger. This track is unreal, the weirdness of SYF and the vibes of YBC is enough to get anyone out of a poor mood and remember why music is the single handed coolest thing in the entire world. This song was begging to be remixed and remastered into a dark and rather illicit setting, and this is JUST THAT. Go take a break from work, put this track on your ipod and quickly rob a bank or something.

Thursday, December 12, 2013

Blackedout - Champagne




There are some songs that have that special kind of airy synth that makes you want to stay in bed forever dreaming of the most beautiful scenarios and thinking of every happy thought imaginable. This is one of those songs. "Champagne" by Blackedout is a trip down positive vibe lane, a downtempo masterpiece with enlightened synths and spacey vocals. Download available.
 Keep your eyes and ears out, my friends, Blackedout will release an EP in early 2014. Yay!



Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Top 10 of 2013



I'm probably missing like 140 songs, but as I would doing this list this morning, these are the ten that came into my head right away. I'll probably do another list or seven before the end of the year because I don't want to leave out any good songs because I know my opinion is soooo important to everyone. Anyway, these are my top ten tracks in a little organized playlist. Enjoy.

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

The Deep || Nico Jaar // Zimmer // Guy Gerber // Owl Eyes // Motez // Maya Jane Coles // Eli & Fur // James Blake

(Pilar Zeta)



He played twice this week in Brooklyn and I missed both. One because he's a secret little mother who released info on the show 15 mins prior and the other because it sold out in 5 minutes and capacity at Glasslands is like nine people. Anyway, I've been fan-girling over everything Nico has produced this year, from his incredibly intense Darkside album to this bit, honestly it's like our souls are his play toys. Brilliant.



Everyone fitted over this when it came out so I laid back and didn't get into it because I didn't want to be a part of the hype. But then the other week I let my Soundcloud roll and when this came on, I became the happiest person in all of the land. I think I even smiled to myself even though I was alone. This track is so gorgeous, puts me in the best of moods and really just takes me away from reality. OH ZIMMER.



Uhhhh my friend showed me this this morning, knowing very well what my reaction to it would be, and I have not been able to stop tearing, let alone turn the damn track off all morning. I want to live in a land that Pilar Zeta has created with her incredibly talented graphic design and have this on repeat for the rest of time, maybe also with "Knowing we'll be Here" by Daniel Avery. God this is beautiful. If you're around in the city on Wednesday, Guy Gerber is playing a show that night and I suggest you go, but be sure to grab some tissues and dance your little heart out all night long.



It's just one of those songs that brings out your gut in full. Deep vibes like this with stunning female vocals like homegirl has? Game over.



MJC at it again always and forever, beast of all trades. Omg this remix is so intense, my heart actually starts to palpitate in really weird ways when this is on. AND SHE'S PLAYING NYE. So first we have Brodi, Gesaff and Para One, then when that's over, making my little way over to MJC to finish out the morning. Might be one of the greatest nights of all life.



OK so what I was doing when I first heard this track is so perfectly in sync that it's only meant to be that I become one with Eli & Fur. This is for sure one of the sexiest tracks of all time, and knowing that it's from two powerful femmes makes it sound 100% better. Speaking of female djs, everyone open up a new tab and check out the company my friend started called "Women in Dance Music." Be part of the movement! Share share share!



And some J Blake just for good measure. ;)

SAVE YOUR CITY

It's so cool to look at people you knew from years ago and see the awesome and incredibly amazing things some people are doing. It's even cooler to see that some people are doing things FOR others. My friend Jamie started the coolest thing ever, he started a clothing company where all the proceeds go to buying supplies for schools in need. Taking a personal stance on education in America is something we all should do, and I suggest you check out his company and help as much as you can.

www.saveyourcity.com



Monday, November 11, 2013

Royksopp - Running to the Sea (VILLA Remix)



I still like to save songs that make me feel differently than normal for their own special post. Royksopp has always been a favorite of mine, they hit me the way Sigur Ros and Coco Rosie hit me, and this remix is just a ball of brilliance. The girls vocals are absolutely stunning, the whole song is gorgeous. It makes me feel very emotional, very happy, and very thankful that I can hear.

GO AWAY MERCURY | GORGON CITY // MNEK // LONDON GRAMMAR // KOVE // L D R U // FLUME // JAMES BLAKE // AUTOGRAF // AMTRAC

Mercury has been in retrograde the past couple weeks, and it has not screwed my shit up so much than ever before. My mood is off, I'm forgetting things, I don't want to be around people, and worst of all, I've wanted nothing to do with music, or the industry or anyone involved. I stayed home this weekend, didn't attend Brooklyn Electronic Music Festival, and didn't open my computer once this weekend. I've scoffed at musicians (except when I met James Blake last week) and honestly had no wherewithal to deal with anyone. But this morning, as I dragged myself to work and opened my Soundcloud, I listened through my stream and just cried and cried because music is so INCREDIBLY powerful and I forgot I don't do what I do for the people, or the ass hole dj's, or the stuck up fake celebrities, I do everything because I genuinely am in love with music, and I want everyone to feel the same way about it. Anyway, let's get to it:



[SAMPLE] THIS is good, honest dance music. Gorgon City always kills it with the beats, and MNEK will forever win first place for my favorite vocalist. The lyrics are perfect and the entirety of the song just sends warmth through your entire body. I can't wait for this to release, I swear I will be playing it every night before I go out. Fantastic. Pre-order it now!



Obviously the album in itself is perfection, and a couple of the remixes that have come out have really been incredible works of art. Shadow Child's remix of "Strong" in particular really stood out to me, but this remix, I don't know what it is, it has that powerful go hunting and running up a mountain kind of feel to it. I've never even heard of Kids of the Apocalypse either, but, I will certainly keep an ear out for them now.



I'm in love with this track, and I typically hate the sound of tropical steel drums in tracks, but for this, it works more than ever. I love the build up, I love the vocals, I love the whole feel of it. And then slam, it smacks you in the face with I don't even know what, but a noise that is very pleasing to my senses. So this song kind of covers all bases of emotions for me, bravo.



UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHMMMMMMMMMM. I want to quit my job, rent an old convertible, kidnap my best friend and just drive. Drive and drive and drive and only play this song because this is one of the most beautiful remixes I've heard in months. And it's hella tough to remix "Insane" as it is, because of the strength of the original but L D R U, you DOG. Fantastic.



James Blake is on that hip hop up and up I'm telling you. I don't listen to Drake, I don't listen to Chance the Rapper, but I do listen to James Blake and will listen to anything he involves himself in. Am I allowed to obsess even though I met him on Thursday night at Output and he had no idea I was such a fan of his??



The homie from Autograf sent me this track and I genuinely really like this remix. Amtrac is another on I am hesitant about listening to remixes to, but this is really mellow and fabulous. Great job Autograf.

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Agnes Obel - Fuel to Fire (Xinobi Rework)



The planets have aligned, my people. My favorite Autumnal dark lady of Europe's best track of her fantastic new album, remixed by one of my absolute favorite producers. Bless this track, and all those involved in the making of it. Couldn't be more excited to share this with all of you.

Panteros666 - Baby F-16



Same.

HALLOWEEN PLAYLIST | SOLOMUN // THE HACKER // EROL ALKAN // DISCLOSURE // EJECA // BODHI




I fell in love with Solomun after seeing him play with David August in some super stealthy warehouse in Brooklyn somewhere at like 4 am, and this song is actually one of the best things in my life right now. So many remixes stemmed from the OG Tiga track, but this one is by far my favorite.



I've been researching the hell out of Gesaffelstein prior to the release of Aleph, and one of my friends had told me about The Hacker being a major influence in Gesaf's life. Then upon reading Funster's interview with the don himself on Mixmag, he talked about the same thing. And then I heard this remix yesterday and I was like ohhhhh I get it. Thee end.



Yeah right when this EP drops in full my brain is going to explode out of my head. You always hold such high expectations for an EP or album from those you love, and then I get mad at myself because what if WHAT IF it just falls a little short, you get so disappointed. But heavens me, I should have known, Erol Alkan will never disappoint. THOSE DRUMS I can't.



Disclosure! You're making me blush this is so dark and sexy mm mmmm. That :43 second mark may or may not have made my heart go into some serious palpitations. Ugh, so real. This might be one of my faves.



Wow, well whatsup Ejeca. This is my kinda house music, deep, gets you thinking some weird thoughts, makes you wanna screw shit up at like 3 AM in the city...man that skipping part is fresh as fffff.



I mean I think we all can agree that Future Classic kills it over and over, time and time again. This is my favorite off the "Imperfection" EP. Groovy as all hell.

Thursday, October 24, 2013

STOP WITH THE PICTURES OF NAKED WOMEN ON MIXTAPES

I've casually commented on public forums about it, I've had short conversations about it with people in the industry over drinks and laughed it off, I've subtweeted the shit out of it on twitter, but now I am at a point where laughing out of disgust doesn't suffice. I am pissed. I'm not too sure what set me off (that's a lie, I know exactly what it was: it was looking at some California based DJ's twitter bio and his mixtape covers of woman's VAGINA's and BARE breasts covered in gold with his name written across) and I just can't take it anymore. WHY IN THE HELL is the dance music industry still suffering from such incredible amounts of anti-feminism? Actually, screw that, it's not even anti-feminism, it's just lack of class and decency. Are we honestly still that antiquated of a culture where we have to have women's organs on our mixtape/album/track covers? Are you seriously lacking creativity THAT MUCH that you have to resort to naked women for imagery? Your music honestly must not be that good if you have to have pictures of naked women distracting us. You don't see female dj's putting dicks and what not on their album covers. SO WHY is it SO acceptable to have it be done by you? We all want equality so badly, and will fight to the death about every right being acknowledged, how about the right for women to be protected? How about a realization that your disgusting, heinous, completely repulsive pictures and lyrics are just a slap in the face to people who actually appreciate music. Yeah, I will go so far as to say it shows a lack of talent. When you have to resort to painting a woman's vagina gold and calling your mixtape a really vulgar word, it is YOU making a JOKE out of something that some of us are busting our asses and hustling through life for. I have dedicated my LIFE, along with a million other people, to show the TRUE, amazing, transcendent beauty of music. To bring this gift of phenomenal sound to others, and to share in an appreciation of something that quite frankly, is other worldly. Why are you making it about you? Why are you feeding into your own disgusting, animalistic tendencies when all we want to do is listen to beautiful sound? I don't want to look at body parts that were put on there specifically so you can objectify them. Women's bodies
, minds and souls are precious, and YOU PIGS are making a joke of it.
The music industry was not, and I repeat, WAS NOT created specifically for the male species. AND I KNOW from being in the industry long enough, and making some of the COOLEST female (and male) friends I've ever made, that we, women, feel like we have to work twice as hard to be taken seriously by some. I AM SO OVER even THINKING that this is still an issue.



Grow up, ass hole musicians. Let the music speak for itself.

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Boiler Room - Canblaster



Because my love for Canblaster, let alone Marble Records will never cease, I'm forcing any and all who view this page to listen to his boiler room set. Without a doubt my fave BR set this year.

James Blake - Life Round Here feat. Chance the Rapper



If you haven't seen it, now is the time to. What an absolutely mesmerizing video. Incredible. I'm seeing Chance next Wednesday, and James Blake next week sometime, too. What are the chances either of them come out on stage for the others show..?

So behind, so, so behind. AMTRAC // SHLOHMO // CHROMEO // MR OIZO // FLUME // SHADOW CHILD



I did not think I could take any more of this song. I am SO over it, that it actually pains me, but Amtrac YOU DOG. You've gone and turned this played out tune into an absolute banger that now I won't stop playing until something just as good catches my ear.




I have one goal in life. That's a lie. But ONE of the goals is to marry Shlohmo. Or at least go on a date with him. Something that involves this music surrounding me at all times of the day, and I can only assume he's as smooth as his own music, so I presume the date would go swimmingly. That 2:19 mark, man, takes my breath away every single time I hear it.



Chromeo and Mr. Oizo, what a team. And what a bizarre remix! I love it. Not to mention these lyrics are some of the best I've heard in a really long time, try to tell me you didn't laugh out loud when you first listened to this track.
"Turn that frown into a crown."


A super short demo of this was released a bit ago, and it was just the piano part. This is a little serious, a little bit more so than we're used to, but man is this a freaking tune. The chords hit in just the right section, and the rap (I've been super into rap and r&b lately I don't know what's happening) but the rap fits more than perfectly. Reminds me of an Immortal Technique track or something similar. Fantastic.


Duh AlunaGeorge, duh Shadow Child. Duh their tandem efforts would be some of the most pleasing to our ears. It's like ok ok Aluna you sound really good but then HEY wanna get really deep and sexy for a minute? OK. Amazing remix.

Thursday, October 10, 2013

Surkin - Oedo 606 (Official Video)



(My superhero song of choice) and a fantastic video to go along with it.

Jamziez || AMTRAC // KULKID // MARIBOU STATE // BAIO // ROBERT DELONG // RAC // PANTEROS666



K first of all I was super bummed I missed Amtrac's after show after he played Barclay's with Kaskade BUT you guys, it was at Pacha. Like I am not a brat and I never care about venues ever but....I just couldn't get myself to do it. I regret it a little bit because of this song. This new Amtrac remix was the perfect track to come out in the middle of the week. After a super late Tuesday night and feeling like complete shit the next day, I swear to you as soon as I heard this I automatically felt better. Jam and a half.



LOL right!? Not only is the original one of my favorite songs already but holy hell this remix just takes it to a level I didn't think was possible. I'm getting down with these old r&b songs getting danced up lately, nostalgia overload.



I'm not going to lie to you. This track surprised the shit out of me. And I really love Maribou State, and I played their Fatboy Slim remix like 610x over and over when it came out but THIS ONE is on another level. Oh man is this a deep, super sensual beauty. That 2:21 mark holyyyyyy is that insanity or what.



I mean Future Classic killing it like absolutely always. The Mira EP is out October 28th, so that last week of October is looking like my computer, ears and soul might explode with all the new music that's dropping that weekend. And the anticipation is making my hands sweat when I think about it.



Oh so good. Oh so, so, so good. It kiiiiiind of reminds me of this Sneaky Soundsystem remix I liked back in like '09 but it's like a little more mature and cool cause it's Robert Delong. Oooof this hits so well.



Club Cheval, man. When I go to space for the first time, this will be the track playing on repeat in the space craft. That it all.