DISCLAIMER: This is going to have a semi-religious undertow and I ... am not really sorry because I havent written a stream of conscience post in a while. Bear with me yo.
I just want to quickley comment on a previous post I wrote a couple months ago entitled "Where are the people who Burn?", or something along those lines.. I am a big proponent of surrounding myself with people who have had hard dealings in their life, I think because I find them more real, and easier to relate with. But at the same time I havent really even come close to the REAL struggle that people are possible of going through. Sure, a lot of less than decent things have happened, and to some, maybe thats super unfortunate, but I really am lucky of how ... the situations...didnt go further...
Anyway, I just wrote a paper on the mystery of suffering found in the poem The Wreck of the Deutschland by GM Hopkins. The entire poem alludes to the modernity of the human soul now a days and the lack of suffering we each endure. We consume ourselves with work, play, drugs, alcohol, sex, music, internet, anything that becomes a "cure" or an "escape" for us so that we don't have to face the heart break of suffering. The more I think about it, the more I understand that what I did this summer was wrong. To forcibly try to create an escape doesn't help my suffering; it prolongs it. If I were to embrace suffering, then I would've found my inscape a lot sooner. I wouldve realized my reason for suffering, asked God for help, knowing that He is the ONLY one who is there for me, and HE is the reason WHY I am suffering, so that I and WE can live eternally with Him. God doesn't cause suffering because He's not really there. He allows it because he wants us to realize we need Him. So to all of the people who don't believe because it's not "fair", or "just" that you have to go through all the pain you deal with, what is any other reason you should get through suffering? There is none.
If the religious aspect of suffering won't cut it for you, why dont you think about this: When you try to suppress your hurt, don't you feel weak? Won't you feel so much happier knowing that you dealt with the pain YOURSELF? If you use all of these outlets that are not only unhealthy, but detrimental to your soul, what is going to come from that? I'll tell you: a really empty and lonely life.
So next time you find yourself snorting lines off of a toilet, ask yourself if that's really how you want to deal.